I don't use this blog at all anymore, but now have a new, more interesting blog at
COSMIC ALPHABET!!!
This one was full of ancient trials and personal tribulations...whereas the new blog is all about amazing discoveries and happy successes!
Cheers!
Friday, August 22, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
The new vibration
Learning has brought me to a place of confidence. Confident enough to make peace with that which is inside myself and outside myself. Knowing they are the same. Knowing that the future is nothing to be feared but only a malleable slate in which the present makes its imprint. Knowing that its imprint is my own, and my choices and my consciousness form that imprint, each moment.
A lesson warrants another and another, but they are not without purpose. Rather, they each lead to greater meaning. And this meaning is enhanced through the synchronicities of my life, of my memory, of my dreams, and the interweaving of realities. I know through love that I am never alone. I feel and see my guides. I hope to create a greater bridge, healing the energies of this world through the capacity of the infinite.
I will bend my hands into the heart of the Earth and travel continental sources folding love into image for the raising of the backs of the past, the heavy of the present, the eyes of future days. Time is an experiment, and this sand box must be nurtured if it is to be sustained and released to the power and will of its inheritants, those who bear their mornings with the idea of bringing a better world with them.
A lesson warrants another and another, but they are not without purpose. Rather, they each lead to greater meaning. And this meaning is enhanced through the synchronicities of my life, of my memory, of my dreams, and the interweaving of realities. I know through love that I am never alone. I feel and see my guides. I hope to create a greater bridge, healing the energies of this world through the capacity of the infinite.
I will bend my hands into the heart of the Earth and travel continental sources folding love into image for the raising of the backs of the past, the heavy of the present, the eyes of future days. Time is an experiment, and this sand box must be nurtured if it is to be sustained and released to the power and will of its inheritants, those who bear their mornings with the idea of bringing a better world with them.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
vintage explained
Perhaps we don’t feel right for this century. Perhaps we want to look as dated as we feel.
Perhaps we are not ready for all this “new,” when we still feel so old.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
being honest about the voice in the back of my head
It is always on pessimistic repeat. When you make plans to get married, to move away, to have kids, to get a puppy, it says "what's the point? you might not make it through into the new beginning, and getting your hopes up about your job, your spouse, your puppy will just make it all the more tragic when the end of your dreams come. Who knows what the future looks like? Why get all excited about someone or something if it will all get changed into something different in a few years?
I know a change is coming, I don't know how to behave up until this change.
Perhaps thats why I lose hope in people, I need to remember that it can be good, and I need to have faith in the future, I need to have faith in me.
Especially that last part. I seek renewance in me. I need to be optimistic about my self, and what i do now, what I do every day, what I think every day, and how I behave every day.
Why bother? is the old voice. The dark voice.
I hate my dumb voice.
I don't to be alone. I want to feel important to those I respect. I need to respect the importance of all individuals. That would have to sacrifice my ego, and lead me back to the question of what it is I do everyday and why.
What is the motivation for my efforts? To find home, to be accepted by my family, to serve the light that guides me, and the light in all beings.
I know a change is coming, I don't know how to behave up until this change.
Perhaps thats why I lose hope in people, I need to remember that it can be good, and I need to have faith in the future, I need to have faith in me.
Especially that last part. I seek renewance in me. I need to be optimistic about my self, and what i do now, what I do every day, what I think every day, and how I behave every day.
Why bother? is the old voice. The dark voice.
I hate my dumb voice.
I don't to be alone. I want to feel important to those I respect. I need to respect the importance of all individuals. That would have to sacrifice my ego, and lead me back to the question of what it is I do everyday and why.
What is the motivation for my efforts? To find home, to be accepted by my family, to serve the light that guides me, and the light in all beings.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
why books, why prisoners.
Who measures the quantity of guilt in a person's soul? Who measures the growth of their awareness, and how is this awareness fostered or achieved?
in the desert of prison, the drought of encouragement is sufficient to dry up a human mind, to sap it of hope. If we leave human souls in barbaric conditions, they only learn how to further be barbarians. If however, they reach out to us with kindness and the intention to better themselves, and we reach back, we can fill that gap with a rushing tide of truth, with opportunity, with graciousness.
We obviously assume something is wrong with their cognitive abilities, their social philosophy and their personal philosophy. Now, to remedy that, if they seek to expand what they know, to rethink and reevaluate how they make decisions and weigh their morality, then we ought to support that. As humans to other humans, we have all felt like prisoners at some point, trapped in some way. But perhaps someone was there to shed some light for us, someone was there to give us another try, to lessen the darkness and despair.
Society gets its vengeance. They rot in solitude and fearsome violence. Sending them books does not lessen their punishment. It just offers them a transformation, a rehabiliation, a way to reclaim their humanity, to have dignity even in their shame, their earned shame.
People go to prison for all sorts of crimes. In this country, if you are poor and minority, you can face serious time in a serious joint for an unserious crime. Some inmates deserve our rebuke, and perhaps this retribution. Yet others perhaps do not deserve to share the same conditions as the worser commitants. And yet they are. These are those I imagine who are starving for the window we provide. Not all prisoners are the same, just as not all humans are the same.
And if there is someone who is kept from knowledge who thirsts for it, I am shaken to treat this injustice. We can all endure suffering, especially that which is earned. But knowledge and the opportunity to overcome our shortcomings and learn from our behavoir ought not to be denied anyone.
Self worth is usually the lacking common denominator in the psychology of criminals and prisoners, before during and afer they have committed crime. These feelings are only going to be further driven into their psyche the longer they stay in prison. People who do not value themselves, do not feel vital to society will have few qualms with breaking society's rules. However, if they can be inspired by society's ideals, its possibilities and the values it esteems for the potential of individuals, then they will seek to make themselves worthy of this society. This inspiration can only be attained through the sharing of cultural wisdom, and that wisdom is consecrated and carried in books.
It is in the themes of our best novels. It is in the histories, the religious literature, the sociology texts. THis wisdom is the freedom that their soul desires, that they were not able to attain even when they were not kept within walls and behind bars. Even when they roamed the streets and lived in the houses as our neighbors they could not find it. Here, now, they have the time and the perspective and the desire to reach for it.
This is what we respond to, this is what we aspire to with this program. Humans to humans, souls to souls, despite the atrocities we commit against each other, we can still teach them kindness by giving them hope, we can teach them generosity by giving them our time and our books. Or we can leave all those lessons out and leave them to remain in the darkness, rotting as barbarians, their only plots and lessons taught by the coldness and brutality of their "home."
We think we fear them, but perhaps we ought not to fear the potential within ourselves.
in the desert of prison, the drought of encouragement is sufficient to dry up a human mind, to sap it of hope. If we leave human souls in barbaric conditions, they only learn how to further be barbarians. If however, they reach out to us with kindness and the intention to better themselves, and we reach back, we can fill that gap with a rushing tide of truth, with opportunity, with graciousness.
We obviously assume something is wrong with their cognitive abilities, their social philosophy and their personal philosophy. Now, to remedy that, if they seek to expand what they know, to rethink and reevaluate how they make decisions and weigh their morality, then we ought to support that. As humans to other humans, we have all felt like prisoners at some point, trapped in some way. But perhaps someone was there to shed some light for us, someone was there to give us another try, to lessen the darkness and despair.
Society gets its vengeance. They rot in solitude and fearsome violence. Sending them books does not lessen their punishment. It just offers them a transformation, a rehabiliation, a way to reclaim their humanity, to have dignity even in their shame, their earned shame.
People go to prison for all sorts of crimes. In this country, if you are poor and minority, you can face serious time in a serious joint for an unserious crime. Some inmates deserve our rebuke, and perhaps this retribution. Yet others perhaps do not deserve to share the same conditions as the worser commitants. And yet they are. These are those I imagine who are starving for the window we provide. Not all prisoners are the same, just as not all humans are the same.
And if there is someone who is kept from knowledge who thirsts for it, I am shaken to treat this injustice. We can all endure suffering, especially that which is earned. But knowledge and the opportunity to overcome our shortcomings and learn from our behavoir ought not to be denied anyone.
Self worth is usually the lacking common denominator in the psychology of criminals and prisoners, before during and afer they have committed crime. These feelings are only going to be further driven into their psyche the longer they stay in prison. People who do not value themselves, do not feel vital to society will have few qualms with breaking society's rules. However, if they can be inspired by society's ideals, its possibilities and the values it esteems for the potential of individuals, then they will seek to make themselves worthy of this society. This inspiration can only be attained through the sharing of cultural wisdom, and that wisdom is consecrated and carried in books.
It is in the themes of our best novels. It is in the histories, the religious literature, the sociology texts. THis wisdom is the freedom that their soul desires, that they were not able to attain even when they were not kept within walls and behind bars. Even when they roamed the streets and lived in the houses as our neighbors they could not find it. Here, now, they have the time and the perspective and the desire to reach for it.
This is what we respond to, this is what we aspire to with this program. Humans to humans, souls to souls, despite the atrocities we commit against each other, we can still teach them kindness by giving them hope, we can teach them generosity by giving them our time and our books. Or we can leave all those lessons out and leave them to remain in the darkness, rotting as barbarians, their only plots and lessons taught by the coldness and brutality of their "home."
We think we fear them, but perhaps we ought not to fear the potential within ourselves.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
A Catch 22
Looking from a certain perspective, the physical aspects of things, planets, stars, atmospheres, anything that can be measured or quantified is simply superficial and misses the meaning of their interaction. Its like naming the characters in a story without understanding that their dialogue reveals how they feel and why they do what they do. Its only the roster of items, not a comprehension of who they really are.
From a different perspective, it seems completely ludicrous to found any perception upon anything other than the physical. We see and touch it, therefore its real, right?
Its a choice. You build the fence and you hold it up. You can let the physical be a starting point, an arena, a guide. Or you can make it the only dimension, based on your choice.
I see it as an scene of interaction. It is a symbolic stage. Everything we do and see signifies a thought. We are the characters writing the novel.
From a different perspective, it seems completely ludicrous to found any perception upon anything other than the physical. We see and touch it, therefore its real, right?
Its a choice. You build the fence and you hold it up. You can let the physical be a starting point, an arena, a guide. Or you can make it the only dimension, based on your choice.
I see it as an scene of interaction. It is a symbolic stage. Everything we do and see signifies a thought. We are the characters writing the novel.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
universe ain't no empty room
Oh, to blog or not to blog.
I think its time I say what I really think.
We're in a lot of trouble. But we are also totally loved and protected. Everything you think in your head is not private, it is a message to the universe and to everyone around you. We have a mission and an opportunity on this planet. We are all a big family here together, and we need to completely take care of each other as Jesus and Mohammed and Gandhi and Mother Theresa and Abraham Lincoln and Your Mom told us too. We can know everything if we choose. We can live forever if we decide. We each are watched protectively. We each are guiding ourselves. There is nothing you can imagine which is not possible. We have twelve strands of DNA which can be activated if you choose to. Aliens exist, of course they do, and we are they as much as anyone else. We don't have to hurt ourselves or drink ourselves to death or have a system that is not based on creativity and love and respect. We can trust each other for we are all ONE in spirit. We are all a part of the same. We are the same stuff, the same air, the same love as everything else. Life is not driven solely by genetics, happenstance falling assbackwards into evolution, though genetics plays a big part in physical life. Nor is life designated and created and assigned to us through fate without our input. Exactly the opposite. We are the ones guiding fate, deciding it, by our attitudes toward each other and ourselves and possibility. If we are on Earth, its because we chose to be here. If we are in a certain family, its because we chose to be there for learning purposes. It is all a game that we ought to start playing. We cannot learn until we do. Those long lines of "clouds" are chemtrails in the sky. We are being polluted and attacked from where we least expect it. From our water and our tv sets and a prison of thought. You are not allowed to consider "energy" or "ufos" or "new age" or "meditation" because its all too dorky and stigmatized. Its called mind control. You may want to, for a second, let yourself consider everything you have not considered or thought to consider in your life. That way you might get half an inch closer to what you have been waiting to remember. Our history is divided and diminished from what it actually is. We did not write it, nor do we fully understand it. But its truth in our genes, in that DNA that hangs inside our cells unused, waiting for our desire and our command to activate it. We have the power to change reality with our minds. Our emotions are the fuel that makes this whole place wonderful. Following your feelings is like flying with the engines actually turned on for once. Remember we are on a planet in a universe, and that ain't no small thing. The universe is no empty room. Do not take things at face value. We look up to heaven for a reason, we are looking for our friends, we are looking into the deep soul of the universe, of home.
I guess I should be more clear. I say we are getting attacked, I suppose I should say by whom. They are and are not the people you vote for. Its deeper than that. Its historical. Its borderless. Its monetary. (Remember the assholes who did the 911 tragedy, wonder where the planes went? Well, those are a fragment of the many many underground bases in this world. And that is the Black World, and they are being directed by some negative parasitic unhealthy non human meanies.) But the past 300,000 years have been a blip, and their system and those entities that have been running it are going to change. Everything is going to change. The light is going to be shown into the darkness. The Christ is not coming back. It is back. I am a systems buster, and I came here with many many many others to welcome the light back into the place that has not seen it for too long. Earth is special, and no society can tell me it isn't, no society can tell me I am not. Light is information and love is the sinew of all things. If you feel you are a part of this journey, welcome! If you are not sure, look around, keep your eyes open. The true nature of things has been kept from us, and we literally have been scratching at the surface. The ancients knew what was going on, look in the Vedas or in the Hopi or the Maya or the Egyptian or the Sumerian traditions for this. We are literally in disguise, to earn the right to help this change through the door. We are living the story now. To learn through the story.
If you feel this in your bones too, then you know this beats all your weekend plans.
Our friends in the skies who have been showing up or being invited to show up are a part of an emissary in service to Light and to us. There are many many many many buddies up there. Just look up, and you will feel them. We are helped and we are loved. They are sending us tons of signals day and night.
There are also those who are literally part of a future failed version of our selves that have been manipulating our goverment since the 40s. Think Gollum comes back in time to fix himself, to re-evolve, using us. That's what they are doing in the underground bases. The karma of that sort of fits tough, doesn't it? There is alot living on his planet which has been wierd and unexplainable and isn't just hillbillies with wild imaginations. So many species have been involved on this planet, this living library that was and still can be.
I guess one of the questions you would naturally have is, if this is all true, then how come NASA and SETI hasn't seen anything with hubble and all those satellites? Well, I've got a bigger one for you. Do you really think you know what Aurora is? Do you know that every other planet has them as well? Do you know that one year after Chernobyl, scientists found large amounts of radiation in only one place in the South Hemisphere, the South Pole? If you know the way the winds work, this is not possible, unless there was an entrance from the North Pole through the inside of the planet to the South. That should answer why NASA doesn't tell you shit, because they are covering up much bigger issues. And SETI has been muzzled. You don't even know your own planet!
Yup. I could go on. For hours.
I think its time I say what I really think.
We're in a lot of trouble. But we are also totally loved and protected. Everything you think in your head is not private, it is a message to the universe and to everyone around you. We have a mission and an opportunity on this planet. We are all a big family here together, and we need to completely take care of each other as Jesus and Mohammed and Gandhi and Mother Theresa and Abraham Lincoln and Your Mom told us too. We can know everything if we choose. We can live forever if we decide. We each are watched protectively. We each are guiding ourselves. There is nothing you can imagine which is not possible. We have twelve strands of DNA which can be activated if you choose to. Aliens exist, of course they do, and we are they as much as anyone else. We don't have to hurt ourselves or drink ourselves to death or have a system that is not based on creativity and love and respect. We can trust each other for we are all ONE in spirit. We are all a part of the same. We are the same stuff, the same air, the same love as everything else. Life is not driven solely by genetics, happenstance falling assbackwards into evolution, though genetics plays a big part in physical life. Nor is life designated and created and assigned to us through fate without our input. Exactly the opposite. We are the ones guiding fate, deciding it, by our attitudes toward each other and ourselves and possibility. If we are on Earth, its because we chose to be here. If we are in a certain family, its because we chose to be there for learning purposes. It is all a game that we ought to start playing. We cannot learn until we do. Those long lines of "clouds" are chemtrails in the sky. We are being polluted and attacked from where we least expect it. From our water and our tv sets and a prison of thought. You are not allowed to consider "energy" or "ufos" or "new age" or "meditation" because its all too dorky and stigmatized. Its called mind control. You may want to, for a second, let yourself consider everything you have not considered or thought to consider in your life. That way you might get half an inch closer to what you have been waiting to remember. Our history is divided and diminished from what it actually is. We did not write it, nor do we fully understand it. But its truth in our genes, in that DNA that hangs inside our cells unused, waiting for our desire and our command to activate it. We have the power to change reality with our minds. Our emotions are the fuel that makes this whole place wonderful. Following your feelings is like flying with the engines actually turned on for once. Remember we are on a planet in a universe, and that ain't no small thing. The universe is no empty room. Do not take things at face value. We look up to heaven for a reason, we are looking for our friends, we are looking into the deep soul of the universe, of home.
I guess I should be more clear. I say we are getting attacked, I suppose I should say by whom. They are and are not the people you vote for. Its deeper than that. Its historical. Its borderless. Its monetary. (Remember the assholes who did the 911 tragedy, wonder where the planes went? Well, those are a fragment of the many many underground bases in this world. And that is the Black World, and they are being directed by some negative parasitic unhealthy non human meanies.) But the past 300,000 years have been a blip, and their system and those entities that have been running it are going to change. Everything is going to change. The light is going to be shown into the darkness. The Christ is not coming back. It is back. I am a systems buster, and I came here with many many many others to welcome the light back into the place that has not seen it for too long. Earth is special, and no society can tell me it isn't, no society can tell me I am not. Light is information and love is the sinew of all things. If you feel you are a part of this journey, welcome! If you are not sure, look around, keep your eyes open. The true nature of things has been kept from us, and we literally have been scratching at the surface. The ancients knew what was going on, look in the Vedas or in the Hopi or the Maya or the Egyptian or the Sumerian traditions for this. We are literally in disguise, to earn the right to help this change through the door. We are living the story now. To learn through the story.
If you feel this in your bones too, then you know this beats all your weekend plans.
Our friends in the skies who have been showing up or being invited to show up are a part of an emissary in service to Light and to us. There are many many many many buddies up there. Just look up, and you will feel them. We are helped and we are loved. They are sending us tons of signals day and night.
There are also those who are literally part of a future failed version of our selves that have been manipulating our goverment since the 40s. Think Gollum comes back in time to fix himself, to re-evolve, using us. That's what they are doing in the underground bases. The karma of that sort of fits tough, doesn't it? There is alot living on his planet which has been wierd and unexplainable and isn't just hillbillies with wild imaginations. So many species have been involved on this planet, this living library that was and still can be.
I guess one of the questions you would naturally have is, if this is all true, then how come NASA and SETI hasn't seen anything with hubble and all those satellites? Well, I've got a bigger one for you. Do you really think you know what Aurora is? Do you know that every other planet has them as well? Do you know that one year after Chernobyl, scientists found large amounts of radiation in only one place in the South Hemisphere, the South Pole? If you know the way the winds work, this is not possible, unless there was an entrance from the North Pole through the inside of the planet to the South. That should answer why NASA doesn't tell you shit, because they are covering up much bigger issues. And SETI has been muzzled. You don't even know your own planet!
Yup. I could go on. For hours.
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