Adolf Guiliani

I will never trust a Republican government, because they don't believe in government and they don't believe in people.

I just watched "Guiliani Time," and it sickened me to the core. It touched the edges of my brain that always knew something was amiss. There is a hole, and I fill it with the wrong things, and the hole is there because something is amiss. And injustice reigns and apathy is a vicious crime. How dare you not be a human being. What life are you living and why?

Maybe I should stay single so I always have this time to be aflame, so I don't make other plans and hide away. I never wanted to do that, except when I was in highschool and college and I was hurting. I had dreams then of a farm and a boy. But when it came, too late, I was healed from that need, and my needs had evolved into a more complex and moral and intellectual and spiritual sense of fulfillment that no ordinary love could fill. I needed a mind and an equal, and I am seeking instead the equal of myself in myself. I am seeking who I want to be, and not waiting to find it anylonger in another person.

Maybe this should be separate posts, but I think I wanted to include the context for my passion, and why passion is not more common. I don't want my passion to leak out onto this page and stay here only though, I want it to live in my heart, and be heard in the ears of the heartless.

As we grow and live we can sometimes cut ourselves off from relating to things that are outside of us. But if you ever get there, just think and look into their eyes and look for their hearts and you will find your own. Adolf Guiliani lost his. He is a cruel man. He should be no where near power, but when you find outsomething that is true and controversial, it can be difficult to make people believe that anything is important anymore, if they can't see it.

In a later post, I will address what we see and what we don't see